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November 30, 2010

this huge yet tiny world we live in

one thing that I’ve been thinking about lately is the fact that there are SO MANY PEOPLE in this crazy, spherical world of ours. Most of which I have never met, nor will I meet in my lifetime. But some of them out there….I will meet, someday. Today, however, they a covered by a fog of tomorrows; unknown faces and stories that I have yet to see and hear. My future someday-adult best friend may be out there…maybe she’s in school right now, or texting her boyfriend, or sleeping, or reading. My future husband too is walking this earth, going about his daily routine. Yet it’s probable that we have not met…families, stories, lives just as real as mine. Yet I know NOTHING of their going-ons. It’s such a mind-boggling concept to me. Think of all the girls out there that could–would!– be my best friends if only we knew each other, grew up in the same town, went to church together, took high school English together.

But that’s not the way it is. Not today, anyway…although it’s possible we’ll meet. Tomorrow, in 3 years, in 50.

And then there is the thought that I could have been born as any.other.person on this planet.

I might have been born into a wealthy, elite family in a large city, or to a poor family of 10 struggling to get by in Uganda, or into a family of 3 in China and given up to adoption. I might have been born into any number of families, in any number of situations, in any number of places on this earth. Yet I was placed delicately by the fingers of God into my family. MY FAMILY. The people who have loved me since birth, shown me the world, inspired, humiliated, angered, and nurtured me. The mom who has given me a love for food and sewing (even though it takes begging for me to do them most of the time). Who taught me embroidery and knitting and how to clean a house. And how to laugh at life. The dad who has given me an appreciation for music of all kinds–including classical. (; Who forced me to practice hours of violin and piano and voice, knowing that in the end it would pay off. Who taught me that random singing of old songs and musicals and random movie quotes make life spontaneous and fun. And that hugs are one of the best things God created. The little sister who has continually helped my mind to grown, and my imagination bloom. She who has helped me understand why in the world people would want to run! or do any sport for that matter. That beauty and passion comes from within–and just because you don’t constantly tell the world your feelings doesn’t mean you don’t have them strongly. (; and that sisters can actually be best friends.

I’m so blessed to have been placed in such a wonderful family by God, and I don’t thank Him enough for them. Because of my family, I’ve seen places in the world most people my age haven’t, I’ve got enough interests and passions to last 2 lifetimes, and huge brainfull of memories, and a heart full of love. (: And most importantly, a relationship with the Creator of the Universe…who loves me more than I can imagine and sent His Son to die for me so that I might live eternally. What more could I ask for?

Nothing. (:


~You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.–2 Corinthians 9:11

Happy belated Thanksgiving, everyone. Take a moment today to be thankful for your life & how God has blessed you!




November 24, 2010

For the Joy of Human Love…I am thankful.

just for fun, I thought I’d post some photos that my friend Kristine took of me! It’s a rare occasion that I get new artsy/pro(ish) looking photos of myself due to the fact that I’m always behind my camera snapping away. So a few weeks ago I took one of my friends out for an hour to just catch up on life and scope out some new places in the ‘ghetto’ of waterloo. (which apparently isn’t actually the ghetto but sure felt like it to me!) Of COURSE, I took my camera and we took a few shots, and I actually was pleased with the way that most of them came out!

So …enjoy some pictures of me! (; haha.

and my personal favorite….

Have a blessed Thanksgiving holiday tomorrow with all your family & be safe! (: I’ll hopefully put up a holiday post soon..but as my family is traveling tomorrow I’m not sure what my schedule will be like. That being said, enjoy your turkey! (:

October 15, 2010

Autumn is here

and passing so fast, I might add! I can’t believe it’s already halfway through October! WHAAAAAT??? The hot weather probably goes along with that disbelief. (; Last Saturday, october 9th, it was 87 degrees or some such craziness! I played in the sprinkler . IN OCTOBER.


My life has been crazy, between midterms and live-in nannying for 3 kids for 7 days (one of which is special needs and took a lot of care and gave me sleepless nights!) But it was a great experience and I just fell in love with those 3 (: God definitely used it to grow me, and I’m so thankful that the parents could get away and celebrate 20 years of marriage! That’s pretty exciting, folks! (: I’m pretty swamped with setting up photoshoots in the next two weeks, so be watching for more posts!

Love love love,


September 9, 2010



It’s a subject that I’ve been pondering a lot lately, due to changes in my life, and pretty major ones at that. Change. It’s so hard to go through. Sometimes it’s easy, and enjoyable, but there is almost always a painful side to it. Other times, its hard from the start to the finish line, and even after that!

I’ve gone through quite a bit of change in my life, a lot of it before I really understood that life was changing. The earlier change, I liked. I’m so thankful that I was able to grow up in Japan, and then in Germany, before moving to the good ole US of A.  (: My life didn’t change majorly for a while. I was homeschooled, involved with the kids ministry and youth group at my church, and saw my friends a lot. The first distinct & very major change was when I was switched from homeschooling to public school in 9th grade. I got some tough love from some of the boys (oh, immature, junior high boys…) and didn’t fully understand how the system worked. Then, the spring of my 9th grade year, my parents dropped the bomb that we were moving. Not anything like across the country, only across town, but it still didn’t set well with me. AT ALL. I cried, begged, pleaded, wept. Anything I thought would change my parents’ decision. I liked where we lived, for crying out loud! However, time passed and my family moved, and that fall I started 10th grade up at the high school- another big change.

Thankfully, my life settled down for a while. This fall, though, I’ve had some very hard goodbyes to say to some very close friends, and had to open up my life to a new chapter: College. (: I think, though, that this may be one of the best changes yet! (besides accepting Jesus into my heart, and forming relationships with my best friends, I’ll add!)

So, here’s to change, the good, bad, and ugly. The very ugly. (; Here’s a photo from my first day of public school in 9th grade…I am so very glad some things have changed! (:

August 31, 2010

Rainy Tuesdays

I have Tuesdays and Thursdays off from classes this semester, which is mostly handy and somewhat….distracting. (; I wasn’t feeling all that great this morning, and my focus (on my homework, that is) wasn’t too stellar. But I did find some fun things to photograph in my bathroom! Welcome to “Highlights of a Messy Bathroom.”

a brand new tube of toothpaste….

my makeup bag….

pictures on the wall…and my laptop and iPod Touch. (don’t ask.)

our towel mat…..

and nail polish! What would a girl’s bathroom be without nail polish? haha. (:

Happy Tuesday, everyone!

August 22, 2010

Trusting…is hard.

Wow. Something happened this afternoon that completely threw my brain into chaos.

I added a local photographer on facebook because she did senior portraits of a CF senior, and I wanted to be able to see them. She messaged me asking who I was, and I explained that I know the young man, and also that photography is one of my passions and I’m going to be attending Hawkeye for their amazing program.

this is what she wrote back to me:

Im sorry, I hope I dont sound terrible, but I do not add other photographers unless they are not from this area. There are just too many! I would really stear clear of Hawkeye’s photography program. This area is saturated with photographers and I think that it would be a better foundation to get a 4 year degree in business, management or PR because at least you can use that degree for something other than photography.

That hurt. A LOT.

Maybe I’m too soft. Maybe she’s right. But it still hurts. I don’t want a woman I don’t know to tell me what I should or should not do. But it did get me thinking-what if I’m really not good enough? There are a lot of people who are going into photography, just because they think its easy with the easily accessible equipment. Should this just stay a hobby? I really want to learn. I’m not amazing-and I don’t want to think I am unless I really am good. Not because my friends say so, or I have a nice, good-quality, expensive camera. I actually often feel like I’m not adequat -I don’t have an amazing editing program, or lots of lenses and equipment, or training of any kind. But I’m willing to learn. This gives me a drive to push myself- to think more creatively, to learn everything I can (even the confusing parts-like f-stops and RAW and everything else that I don’t even know exists!) I know I’m not Jasmine* or Jamie Delaine or Sarah Barlow or even Kristen! (just a few of my favs.)

Maybe photography isn’t my “calling”… but then I don’t know what is. I love music, so much, but I’m not amazing at it either. Or theatre. Or theology. But I do know: that I love God and I want to grow in my faith. I want to learn to share that with others-espcially kids and teens. I love theatre/musical theatre and CYT especially, and I want to be a part of that somehow. Or something similar. I love people-talking with them, getting to know them, investing in their lives.

I don’t know what God’s plan is for me yet. I thought maybe I’d figured it out. I guess..we’ll all just have to wait and see. (:

Don’t let anyone look down on you for being young. Instead, make your speech, behavior, love, faith, and purity an example for other believers.-1 Timothy 4:12

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.- Jeremiah 29:11

[the verses I’m clinging to right now.]

July 5, 2010

The sun always sets, but then, it always rises again!

These last few months have been crazy around here at my place. We’ve been working on the tail end of remodeling our upstairs of our house, I had AP tests and finals, was in a local production of the Music Man, had Graduation, then shows and trying to find a job. It has been hectic to say the least!

Last Orchestra concert ever. It was really sad for me, because I’ve played violin for 11 years and have gotten really close with these 3 chicas through orchestra, and also with Mr. Hall, our director. (:

This is Fiddlesticks- my violin group (: I love these kids SO much…they are all incredibly talented! This was taken at the Suzuki final concert (Suzuki is the organization that I’ve taken violin with all these years. It has been hard, so hard, but I’m so very thankful that my parents didn’t let me quit!)

Being a senior=you can do whatever you want! After orchestra was done, we hung outside during 4th hour almost every day and ate lunch/talked/took photos/etc. It was prettttty awesome!

Of course, I had to have an open house! This is what I wore…its a friend’s dress but I LOVED it! Unfortunately, I only got like 2 photos taken of me at my open house. 😦 That’s what happens when YOU are the photographer!

Say hello to Aaron & Carol RIGGS! This wedding was sooo much fun. I loved everything about it! The Riggs family … well, lets say we go way back. (; and Carol, the gorgeous bride, interned with our church youth group this past year and we’ve all gotten to know and love her. They just moved out to CO and we all miss them exxxtremely!

Last day of high school was hard. It was fun, granted, but hard. I call myself the “old person in spirit” because I miss things before they end! I’m one of the few who wasn’t super excited to graduate, for many reasons, but one being that i’ll miss allllll my friends a crap TON!

Open housing is so extreeeeemly fun! This pic is of Jessa, Kels, and myself at Kelsey’s open house. (: I think I went to 14 that day? it was pretty crazy!

And finally, it was May 30th. THE DAY. I walked down that isle, and received my diploma! It was exciting, and sad, and undescribable. The end of a chapter, the close of a book. But then, it is also the beginning of something new. (:

To end this post, here is a photo of myself in my costume for the Music Man! I really loved it, from the lace-up soft leather boots to the longgggg skirt!



June 22, 2010

Of high school proms….

It’s a high school prom it’s a Springsteen song it’s a ride in a Chevrolet

It’s a man on the moon and fireflies in June and kids sellin’ lemonade

It’s cities and farms it’s open arms one nation under God

It’s America

May. The craziest month in the year, next to December!  Its full of open houses, AP exams, finals, graduations……and PROM! (:

The first thing to do on such an important day, is, of course, get your hair done! Once it’s perfect & unable to be moved, even by a genuine Iowa tornado, you move on to ….


Step 3 is to apply make-up and have a generally good time with your girlfriends. (:

Once everyone is dressed in their stunning dress (of bolts and bolts and bolts of fabric) you can move on the the best part of the day….the pictures!


Rachel & Scott ❤

oh goodness. Such beautiful ladies!

It was a night that will be remembered. For many many many years! (:

February 28, 2010

goodbye, february…

Wow. It has been a long time since I posted! Over a month….sheesh.

SO. I’ve been busy, of course, and haven’t had much time to take photos, much less post them.

Last month (January!) I had a funnn weekend with my girls: Jessica, Ashley & Vanessa.

Ash & Jess with their purple dresses…

Jess and I had to try on the hats. 😀

Jess decided to play ‘dummy’ at Old Navy. Bahaha. We had fun there!

Trying on dresses. ASH! Sock violation! 😛 haha.

and for the highlight of the evening…. Dun dun dun…

Dyeing Ashley’s hair! (:

So that’s been some of the highlights of my life lately, in between school and working on scholarships. (:


It was a greattttt weekend.

January 9, 2010

18 Things (:

This weeks post is 18 things about me…one for every year of my life!

1) I was born in Hawaii, 2 days after the 50th anniversary of Pearl Harbor.  For those of you who aren’t so great with math (like me!) that’s December 9, 1991. The reason: I was a preemie &….

2) My dad was in the Air Force! So I got to spend 3 years growing up in Japan & 4 years in Germany, & then of course we moved here to CF Iowa because my dad had a friend who worked for this great Christian doctors office & he’s still with them. (: Anyway, I loved growing up overseas ( & all the fun traveling! tho I didn’t appreciate it then) and it kinda makes me want to marry a service man. As in, someone in the military (: haha. We’ll see if that’s what God has in store for me.

3) I was homeschooled until 9th grade. It was the best childhood I could have asked for & I miss it a lot especially not seeing my homeschooled friends as often, like at co-op. But public school has been a blessing for me as well, hard but good. I’ve made lots of awesome friends & learned lots about myself.

4) I have random dance parties in my bedroom. Especially to Owl City. (:  This might stem from wanting to be a “swimmer-singer-dancer girl.” Unnnfortunately, my dance studio burnt down after my first year of lessons & mom never signed me back up. 😦 But there is still hope, right? haha.

5)I’ve played violin for like 10 years. Yeah, its a long time. Ok, since this post has gotta have a photo…

6) My family watches the Waltons. It’s this awesome tv show about a family with 7 kids in the Appalachians in the depression. SO GOOD!

7) Country music is awesome. And barn dances. Yes please (:

8) I’m a very social person. Very. I love talking. Can you tell?

9) I don’t swear. At all. So get used to it.

10) Never had a boyfriend. not yet, anyway. (;  BUt I sure wouldn’t mind a prom date this year!

11) I’m SO addicted to tea and cheese-its. Not necessarily together, though (: In fact, I’m drinking some Earl Grey right now!

12) I’m a bookworm. I read just about anything I can get my hands on. It’s bad when it gets in the way of my homework. I’m working on that. (;

13) I love clothes and shopping and dresses. AND headbands. They are my new fav accessories! Target has some reallyyyy great ones!

14) My family has this great tradition of going skiing. I learned over in Europe, and then we have gone out to Colorado every year since we moved back to the states except for last year. Nothing like them mountains (:

15) I love music & theatre & photography. Duh. (: I’m very into the artsy side of life.

16) I love traveling! Besides CO, my fave place that I’ve been would have to be France last summer with my french teacher & a bunch of students. But that might change this spring break, cuz the orchestra is going to the Bahamas, baby!

17) I love kids. SO much. Especially boys. Annnd little girls (: haha. I really hope that God will bless me with a large & noisy houseful. Sooner than later (: I just so want to get married & have kids.

18) God is my Love, and I’m growing so much in my faith already this year. One of my goals is to read my Bible every day this year, because I’ve slacked. Growing up in the church its so easy to just slack in your faith because you go to church & youth group & such, and I really am going to take steps this year to make my relationship with God this year REAL to me. & hopefully I’ll learn to hear from Him. You know, I think I did today. (: God is so good.

So, hopefully you learned something new about me. If you didn’t, you just know me too well (: